long time no post

Well, when I said I can ignore this for a month I didn't actually mean this blog but things got a little hectic :)

Sorry guys, anyway - quick recap of the last months news

I've told exBF thats its over, and I don't want us to get back together. That probably counts as one of the worst conversations of my life but at least its over with now....

We've also sold the companies - well most bits of them. That'll help a lot with my financial issues (owning a house with lots of equity is great until you have to buy someone out of the other half of it!)

So I now work only three days a week at the merging of what was the old company and the people who brought it. That brings in enough to meet the bills. I managed to get a project for some reasonably money which I can do in my free days for a couple of months, and I'm talking to someone about something after that.... plus I'm trying to raise funding for a project I've had simmering away for a very long time so if all that comes off I'm going to be very very busy for a while :)

So then on internet stuff I'm really pleased with how some of the online projects are going. And I'm a virtual Auntie! Congrats Darc and Tricia on beautiful baby Rory!

Um, what else - oh yeah I have some wild and whacky plans for things which I'll mention if they happen. Sometimes I think I'm a little too impetious. Then I think that other people who are way more sensible than me are involved too so how bad can it be?

So as you can probably tell, although its been hectic and certainly not all good on balance over the past month a lots happened and most of it has been positive eventually. Now I just need to sort out my personal life (there are people who like me and people I like but sadly the two don't seem to be overlapping at the moment) and I'll be fine. The personal stuff is strange. I don't feel like I'm actually *over* exBF as yet but I also feel like I need to start getting out and doing stuff, its been 4 months now and I'm not a naturally single person I suspect (ie; I like my own company and I'm not unhappy but I miss having someone to take the piss out of the TV programmes with in the evenings and I want someone to cook sunday lunch for 'cos its not so much fun on your own!)

The problem is there does seem to be a very find line when you're, erm, my age, between what men seem to expect from you and what you're willing to give. While I can't say I wouldn't have a one night stand I'm certainly not about to have one with someone because he took me out for a quick drink (or even a quick drink, a five course meal and a diamond tiara). I have some standards and I do have to like someone to sleep with them!

Ah well. If thats the biggest problem I have then I guess I can cope with it!